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Yet again Comfortably Numb…

July 23, 2012

Yet again Comfortably Numb..

Sometimes we get too attached to the dreams we see, as real as they appear to be. Sometimes when we hope to live, the dark cloud above covers every dream and that ‘something’ disappears completely. Sometimes I seem to forget who I am and what I want in life. While I know and they say time heals all wounds I also need to understand why destiny comes up with new wound. Is this the vicious circle of pain and heal that one goes through always or is it only me who has to go through process again and again. Why my inner self doesnt allow me to accept change so easily.Why do i wander in memories of past which is no longer there.Million of things go around in my head. I want to shout, shout aloud, cry my heart out to come out of the fear, to break free, to live & dream again.

For now I just feel Comfortably Numb again..remembering the Lyrics which best suits me

Is there anybody in there?
Just nod if you can hear me
Is there anyone home?

Come on
I hear you’re feeling down
I can ease your pain
Get you on your feet again

I’ll need some information first
Just the basic facts
Can you show me where it hurts?

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship’s smoke on the horizon
You are only coming through in waves
Your lips move
But I can’t hear what you’re saying

When I was a child I had a fever
My hands felt just like
Two balloons
Now I’ve got that feeling once again
I can’t explain
You would not understand
This is not how I am
I… Have become comfortably numb


Live life unscripted….One day at a time

May 19, 2012

One day at a time–this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.

We all as human beings have various kind of expectations from many of us actually live life forgetting past or not worrying about future? We let go of the present pondering over bad past and scary future isn’t it? As my brother referred to – Why can’t we consider present as a PRESENT(Gift) and cherish every moment of today. “Live life as it comes and not as you expect it be” these were the words uttered by him the last day when we were having a serious conversation about Life and how to live.Unusual it is to have such conversations with brother specially for someone like me who always consider myself to be a close person and take a lot of time to open up or share things. But this was a different day..One of those days when I had chance to understand what he thinks about life, to share what I think about, to fill the gap and differences. Sometimes simple things can be so complicated just because we spend too much time thinking about it. I was a real go getter, nothing use to let me down then why have I given these worries so much space in mind to push me down! Want or desire is the act of thought on past experience of pleasure and or pain.

Life is Scary and Crazy at times, it’s weird how I look at certain situations in life.One drawback of me is that I always imagine future as its worst state. It’s doing nothing but spoiling my present, I question myself what am in doing now.I feel paralyzed at times, So indecisive.As much as I see certain situation horrid , I want to change my outlook to seeing them as a new door that has opened to something wonderful and I had to get through the bad to get to the good.Simple fact is that future is always changing, with every conversation, every move every thought with blink of eyes.Having dreams , aspirations is no crime and I found something good and very unexpected about me – I am not a bad listener at all :).

A good conversation- Maybe it will work out and maybe it won’t, but that’s not going to stop me from still living my life to the fullestt till whatever time I feel I can. You never know life might come with some other sweet surprises so I’d rather live each day as it comes. Grasp each moment of life and cherish it as a memory,learn from your mistakes, whether it be good or bad



Let me live- One day at a time please 🙂 🙂

Signing off!!

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Angel Vs My Inner Demon

March 17, 2012

Every one of us live with a dual personality, one is our Angel like personality and other is our inner demon. No matter how much we deny this fact but deep down inside all of us know that these two powers are in constant war with each other. How do know which instinct to follow? Simplest of our decision are guided by these forces..we follow a typical routine everyday and these power play a vital role in my life to influence my decisions ..some examples from my daily life.

To wake up Every morning on time– Big enough for all of us as we end up snoozing our alarm 5-6 times. Demon forces us to sleep for another 5 mins and Angel reminds us that we are being late for work afterall punctuality matters..

To eat a healthy breakfast– At least for me , I get tempted by the Toast or junk food ..demon in me is very strong to push me towards those. The sweet natured Angel quietly reminds me how I need to take care of my health.

Inner Demon Vs Darling Angel

Inner Demon Vs Darling Angel

Demon Me–  That delaying of an important work ..which been pending for quite sometime but doesn’t interest us. Angel Me -Pushes us to gear ourself up into action by telling “You can do it now”

Demon Me–  who break our spirit when we makeup our mind to run or walk away from certain feeling, Angel Me– reminds us about possibilities to fix it overcome it.

Demon Me– Who takes away my Smile leaving me hurt by small stupid incidents, Angel me–  Teaches me how to fight it back and have my happiness and smile back .

Demon Me– Shows me how bad are others , their ills their failures their selfish nature, Angel Me – tells me no one is bad, everyone is born with a beautiful heart, we just need to look deep into it and find our happiness.

Demon Me– Makes me lonely, to cry, to curse to feel the pain. Angel Me– always motives me to love to live to dream to accomplish to achieve what I desire.

Demon me– Says my writing is boring, no one is gonna read you 🙂 Angel Me– replies “do not disturb I am busy writing”

Bringing Demon and Angel on same Side

Bringing Demon and Angel on same Side

Dear demon, you better reasonable for showing me all wrong ways and path,  for pushing me towards hell. I will not follow you, i will fight back as you are not worth having a  space in my mind.I am not going to agree to your suggestion and you would not like me bully you in return.So, it’s better you leave me.

The shortsightedness always makes us drift towards our inner demon, what we need to look at is long-term desire. Negative thoughts will not only hurt us ; they’ll also make us die every second and make life more painful. So, pals, don’t let the devil get away with it. The little white angel inside us is sure to fight back.


” Demon you are my angel and we are on the same side now!! ”  🙂

Little things we miss, Little thing that Counts..

March 11, 2012

Life is only as busy as much as we want it to be busy. One of the most interesting person I once met told me “It’s not difficult to be happy, hardest part of life is over” and I completely support this statement.. Hardest part of Life is over..School,college,job all struggle is now over..and now life will move in it’s own pace. Our life is now in our own hand, how we shape it, it depends on us. To get carried away by it or carry it the way we want to.. Be your god of small things

Life is all about deriving pleasure from smallest of things…In a fast moving life we never noticed that real happiness is when we stop worrying about future and live what we have today. Few things which instantly came to my mind which I can do to give some happiness to myself-

1. Cuddle up in bed–  Sometime it feels so good to have someone in your arms.. a pillow cuddled up is just to make you feel good.

2. Wish yourself a great Morning– Did we ever wish ourselves Good Morning!! ..we don’t! Just think about it..waking up every morning with a smile and wishes to our own self  can itself make our day so bright isn’t it??

3. Dance to your own tune, listen to music that make you feel good not the one that make you feel sad.

4.  Smile at a stranger– It’s like buy one get one free! A smile on face how much does that cost?? Smile on face- not a very costly affair..instead it set’s all worries aside. So Smile.

5. Appreciate someone – small kind words can matter so much to someone who need it badly.

6. Watch Nature’s beauty– A beautiful Sunrise or Sunset..even watching the bright moon feels so peaceful.

7. A small gesture of Support or courtesy–  you can just change someone’s day/mood, trust me it can work wonders for you too.

8. Gather Blessings – Who said only God bless, try gaining blessing from an old man whom you can help cross road, or hold someone who needs you, share your food with someone who is needy..and many more act of kindness can fill your day with blessings. Remember there is a GOD in every individual.

8. Speak your heart out –  Don’t keep any grudge or sorrow inside you. Speak it out infront of people you trust if not anyone talk to yourself infront of mirror and let it all out..

9. Pamper yourself –  with things you love doing, TV, songs, Movies, nightout, or may be reading and writing. Spend time with your creative side.

10. Give your body and mind rest – sleep well and in peace. Dreams can turn into reality – y0u never know 🙂

There is long list of very small things I observe in my entire day, may be shall put it up in next post. Till then let me myself try and follow these. Hope to make a difference to my life and someone else’s life as well.

Coz I believe in Destiny..

March 11, 2012

Few days back while having a casual conversation with Anisha (my first cousin) I realized that “Destiny” is a common bonding we share. Yes belief in something can also be a reason for bonding, not that am not close to her but certain beliefs  brought us even more close and this Belief was how much we believe in “Destiny”, the Karma.

With no specific definition, for both of us Destiny meant something we deserve. It meant something we blindly trusted on.

Anisha as she says her opinion – “Destiny is a belief. I am destined with my parents and family. Destined with some beautiful friends and some fake people. I live my dreams that’s destiny. I can’t live with my love that’s destiny. Destiny is acceptance and those acceptances are pain and sometimes gain. Let us follow our destiny and flow with it. I have no regrets in my life coz everything is destined and for good and we can’t fight with it.” .

I so very much agree to her . But at times at lonely hours I wonder what my destiny is?? Sometime I just try to analyze what destiny really means. to me With all the good and bad phase in my life so far I have no complains, still what is it that am dependent on? Does it mean running away from past for a better tomorrow or does it mean to live in present. For some people like me it means to leave my life in hands of someone who is better qualified to judge what is good or bad for me. I am stuck in time where wounds/failure is scary and future so uncertain. I want to migrate to a different world all together where there is no pain there is no fear.My mom tell me stories of her life,and i understand that fate plays an important role in each one of our lives. So is it that we don’t know where we are heading or is it that we don’t want to know. I am clueless.

 Whatever it is, Life itself is guarded by Force and as long as I trust my GOD , everything  will move in right direction.


As we move through life, the force of fate creates events that we only   appreciate when we reflect on our existence.

– Ronald Harmon

HIS presence…

March 2, 2012

My god has no religion, no form or place. My God is not even a person but only a presence. We search for HIM every now and then. Want to feel HIS presence and so we visit temple or places where HE has left his footmarks.

Did we ever try to feel his existence in our day-to-day life? No..coz we are busy in this vicious circle called LIFE.

Just when I was reading this amazing book called “When God steps in miracle happens” which states about real life stories of people who had experienced God’s presence, a thought stroked me to pen down my own experience not with respect to his presence in form of some super-natural power but write about my feeling of his reflection in every human being.



God cannot reach everywhere…So he created Mothers on the Earth! MOTHER IS GOD’S Best GIFT to all of us. We cannot see GOD but we see our mother and she is the only God that we can fee.All relation in this world as Give and take one’s but only the relation between mother and child is free from all worldly pleasures. A mother’s love is unconditional and everlasting. She is the first person to feel your presence in her womb, she knows what you want, when you want, Yes she knows it all. I have seen her awake whole night to make you comfortable, I have seen her break when she see her little one sick or in pain.She is the one who can make you conquer the world with her blessings. Just as we know God loves, understands, forgives, consoles, protects, bears our sufferings, and guides so also a mother does. As human beings we come to know the qualities of God in and through a mother. The divine power, the beauty, it’s all SHE. I am a proud daughter and it’s a beautiful feeling to have come in this world. Thanks Maa, I owe you this life and next 7 birth is all for you. Thanks Di, you’re the world’s best mom.

Guardian AngelGuardian Angel

There is a GOD in every child.Every child born into the world is a creation of GOD, a thought so ever fresh. Did we ever wonder how a life sustains in womb for 9 month? There is a divine power guiding their life and I truly feel that a Child is a GUARDIAN ANGEL. Who tells us what a child need, food, water, sleep or any pain; yes it’s the ALMIGHTY, HIS divine presence in each child that expresses their desire. Haven’t we seen these angels smiling while asleep..They don’t dream but it’s time to talk to GOD, play with GOD and spend time with their best friend HIS HIGHNESS. The freshness around a child, the spark in their eyes- there is no bottom to it, their smile, their sleep can anything be more beautiful than this? A child has no thoughts, no worries about past about future they live in present and teach us how much today matters more than yesterday and tomorrow. I am blessed with a little nephew and Aadi, you are life.

GOD is present in every human being, there is no bad person.It’s either a bad situation or a bad time. If you really want to find HIM look inside your own self. There is a GOD in your parents, in your grandparents, in your brother-sister, in friends & best friends, in spouse and husband in some more undefined relation what we call as Love which is bliss.

So, stop asking yourself this question.How to feel God, how to feel HIS love , how to feel HIS presence in your life? Give Love, accept love, forgive quickly, help others, Share your time with people in need, live this gifted, it’s precious.

Look at the sky he is calling you, for you need to find HIM on earth. Heaven is where we live.

Divine Power

Divine Power